It's been forever I know since I've last updated. Life got rocky back in 2012 and I never made it back to feeling like I had before that time. It's not an easy thing to do, forgiving and moving on, no matter how dedicated you are to that intention. Yet, I have to keep trying.
I've been spending a lot of my online time on Twitter. I went for the politics, but after the change in tide of my personal life, I stayed for the comedy. I needed to laugh. Who doesn't right? It just that I felt I needed to laugh more than ever in my life. I also needed a place to vent. Limited to only 140 characters though, such a challenge. I managed though & found a new group of followers who enjoyed my micro-poetry and attempts at humor.
There is so much plagiarism on Twitter, something that really didn't come to my attention until just this year. One large account even boasted to stealing from "blogs" for her tweets. Other accounts called her out on it, yet strangely enough, her following just grew, with her followers defending her thievery. Most likely for her RT value. I'm not sure. Whose to say what is ever in the real hearts and minds of people? Integrity? Does that even exist on the on-line world? Maybe for a few, but most likely for the majority, is it absent from any kind of responsibility?
Because of the tweeter I mentioned above, I thought it might be interesting to use my tag line for this blog, "Deep Thoughts. Limited Vocabulary" as a micro-poetry tweet. Though this particular blog URL has only been around since 2012, the domain has been around much longer, for which I used that tag line on my previous blog. No one noticed any correlation. No one cares to do searches to confirm integrity of a tweet, but I'm glad to say it's mine, & no one else's. That means a lot to me in a online world where everyone lifts & represents things as their own.
I was also going to tweet a tag line I used for about a month in 2006, "Death by Snot," but disappointedly found many tweets for that spanning back to 2011. Lol I'm 9 years too late on that tweet. Such is life. Snooze you lose, right?
Last night I decided to disconnect from Twitter for a while. I lost much of myself there & want to regain what I lost back. I'm not sure how long I'll be able to stay away, but perhaps me having this venue to vent & document my thoughts will help. Who knows.
Sometimes I have no words. Sometimes I have too many. Hopefully I will find I have the right words to get me through all of this. I'm trying to get back to seeing hope in everything. I'm trying to get back to being able to believe in people who make me promises again, regardless of whether they can keep those promises or not.
Wish me luck. Throw me a rabbit's foot. It's time for me to learn to feed my soul again.